I remember back when I lost 60 lbs when we lived in Colorado. It was so awesome to be able to fit into smaller clothes! I actually got down to a size 16!!! I was very excited and felt good about myself. When we found out about Cean's health, I lost control of everything and gained all of my weight back and more. It seemed like things spiraled out of control from then on. Over the last several years, I have attempted to lose weight, but I have been unsuccessful. I have learned a lot about myself over the past couple of months of this competition. While I was doing a great job at the beginning of this competition, I had a major road block (emotional stress) in the middle and haven't been able to bring myself back from that. I let someone else and a situation that had nothing to do with my weight loss control me. I have learned that I am stronger than I thought. I can come back and do well. I know that I won't win this competition, but I do know that I can still keep my head in the game and I can continue forward. My original goal was to lose a very large number. I was shooting towards a loss of 50 lbs! I have had to alter my goal for this competition to a weight loss of 30 lbs. I think that is still a great goal. And, I am really going to try to reach that. That means that by the end of the competition, I need to be at 220.6. I will do my best to reach that goal, if not surpass it. I have decided that I will continue on with my weight loss even after this competition. There has been talk of another competition, and I want to be a part of it. It is helpful for me to have a support group when I am doing something that is so hard for me. It surprising how emotional it is for me to be on this weight-loss journey. There is a lot that I still need to learn and a lot of weight to lose, but I think that with the right support and with the plan that works for me, it will happen.
One of the most important things that I have learned is that Heavenly Father is always there to help me not matter what I need help in. Lately, I have needed help in forgiveness and understanding. I also need help with self control. There have been many times that I have been driven to my knees in searching for guidance and for help and encouragement. I have received it every single time I've asked. I know that I can be successful in my life. I really need to remember that I am a precious daughter of God.
My name is Janie Gwen Marks Smalls, and I am a successful, happy, person. :)
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Janie, I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteYay it worked! I hope you have a great day today.
ReplyDeleteHi Sis. I was excited to see a post from you again! Seems like we talk about this whole thing a lot, since apparently half the time you and I are on the same page!!! :) It's great though to know that there are others experiencing the same things and having the same struggles. I know you can be successful at what you put your mind and heart too. It's okay to go through "derailment" times, especially if we learn something, anything from them! You can get down to a size 16 and lower again, I know you can. Just let me know if you want me to send you that sexy picture of yourself at the Gorge... :) Hee hee. xoxox
ReplyDeleteJanie, this is the third time I've tried to comment on your blog: connection problems. Hopefully they are solved now and this will post. I am very proud of you and have unbounded confidence in you. I have no doubts you can and will meet your goals. You do not give up. You learn more, understand more, adjust, and continue. Yes, you are a winner! I love you. Mom
ReplyDeleteJanie, last week you sent me a text asking if I thought you could do it and I responded yes, but you will have to work hard. Well, that is what you are doing. I know you can do this and I love you. Can't wait to see you!!! Call Narie and tell her to hurry up and have that baby! :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your comments and support. I cannot begin to tell you how much it means to me. Especially now. I love knowing that I have people surrounding me that love me no matter what. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you'll see this post or not, Janie, but I was going through your blog and was really impressed by this string of posts. First, your positive attitude in the face of hard things inspires me. You're not a quitter. I was also impressed by the supportive comments of others. Isn't it great to know that you're a part of a family that loves you no matter what? It's pretty special, and so are you!
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