Lip Service, Lip Service, Lip Service...

That's all I feel like I've been doing! Is lip service! I've been talking about doing a great job and winning and all that other stuff, but it's just been lip service! I think that when I write things or say things, I really mean it, but when it comes down to actually doing it, I guess I don't mean it. I've been at the same weight (with a few ups and downs) for the past month! Enough! No more lip service, more DOING!!! I really want to fit into all the clothes that Anna sent me! They are so cute, but some are too tight.

Winning Attitude

Since the beginning of the competition, I have had a winning attitude. But, for the past few weeks, my focus has shifted and I've had a very difficult time dealing with some things that have been going on in my personal life. Anyway, I have another 5 weeks to win this thing! I am going to win. I really think that I can do it with enough hard work and determination. I am planning on winning this. My weigh in today was less than desirable, but the next several weeks will be very pleasing! :)

Whewww!!!

Wow! I'll tell ya! These past several days have really been somethin'! Somethin' STRESSFUL!!! I am so glad that today I am beginning to feel more like myself. It's amazing what stress does to ya. I'm doing my best to remember my blessings and to focus on the positive. I keep telling myself, "Come on, Janie, hang in there." I actually did look at myself in the mirror today and gave myself a pep talk. It felt good to see and hear someone telling me good things and being motivational! Even though that someone was me! :) Hee hee... Okay, here's to another day! I am the little engine that could! Oh, by the way, after my little pep talk, I did have a little chuckle with myself. Ha ha ha ha!!!!

Uh oh

I'm starting to feel sick. I really hope it doesn't last. The stress that I have been feeling has caused me to lose sleep and have a very poor appetite. I took some Tylenol PM tonight in hopes of a good nights sleep. I had a wonderful walk today. It helped me to clear my head and it felt great to have that movement. We're supposed to have rain on Monday, so I'm glad I was able to go out today. As far as eating goes, it was not perfect. But, tomorrow is a new day and I plan to be perfect tomorrow.

Hard

I had a hard day today and I didn't have a perfect day. I did drink all my water, but I didn't eat nearly enough food today. I just haven't felt like eating today. I know I need to, but my appetite has been gone today. I've got to deal with my stress better.

So good, so far!

Today was a great day for me. I did everything that I feel classifies a perfect day for me. I'm really excited about reaching my 10% weight loss. That's 25 lbs!!! I am looking forward to going to the spa! I've been looking forward to that since December! I decided though that I would wait until I had lost 10% of my body weight. I'm getting close to that. Now, I'll have to think of something great for my next 10% weight loss reward! It's funny, the first thing that I think of as a reward is going out to dinner. Hmm...food, food, food...I do eat a lot of food and that's good, but I don't always want to think of that as my reward for doing something well or right. I think the spa thing is a great incentive for me. I'm glad Cean gave that to me for Christmas! The other thing that will happen when I get to my 10% point is posting my progress photo!!! That is going to be great to see the picture side by side! I know that I've made some good progress and it'll be fun to SEE the progress in a photo.
Well, while it has been a good day, it's also been an emotionally charged day. I am ready to go to bed and rest my mind and my body. It seems like the past couple of weeks have been very trying for me. I just need to remember what is most important in life and keep my focus. I am so grateful for the family and friends that I have that are so supportive of me. I feel that that has been a huge part of my own personal success with different things in my life. Specifically with this time around of losing weight. I was telling Cean tonight that my routine is becoming second nature. I don't have to think so hard about what I'm going to do during my day, or what I'm going to eat. I have always kind of "suffered" through a change in my diet or physical routine, but not this time. That's why I know that the weight that is coming off is going to stay off. I am doing things that I can do the rest of my life. What a great feeling to feel in charge of something! There are so many things in life that are beyond my control. So many things that I wish I could control. At least I can control how I treat myself and how I think about myself. I can control my actions towards others. I can choose who I want to be. I have control of the progress that I do and do not make. Hmm...I guess there are quite a few things that I do have control over. :)
Okay, now I'm ready to hit the sack. Nighty night! :)
Oh! PS Jeff, I really liked how you changed "so far, so good' to "so good, so far". Thanks!

Uh huh!

Uh huh, oh yeah!!! I'm having a perfect day! It's happening and I feel great! Thanks for the challenge, Anna! :) And, thanks for the clothes!!! I got them today! I don't think I'll be able to wear most of them right now, but I will be able to wear them very, very soon! Yippeeee!!!